How do I deal with unnecessary stress?
I start to think about something way more stressful at the grand scale. (Just to belittle the cause of the present stress you know.) Like super grand. Mostly intangible stuff. Maybe something more consequential.
Say, the confusion of my identities. At this given time and place.
Am I secretly considered a traitor by most countrymen (and women) for being a minority where strong belief in a single totalitarian society equals deep rooted nationalism, and its denial a naked act of treason? Can I not follow a certain (clearly unpopular) religion openly and yet be a proud national? Or do I have to make a choice?
And who's even creating this dilemma? Why can't I trace this to a single source?
Or maybe I simply play the hypocrite and please both - the extremist nationalists and the extremist religious ones. Very convenient. But hard on my conscience. Wait, why should I be the one to have a conscience after all?
Shit..So that how's the fight always begins. (inserts pretend eureka exclamation mark) One ego against another ego. Its always been this.
But you know what's the best option? I'l just act indifferent. If I care less, I'll be safe. Yeah. it even sounds safe.
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